moody...

Hmmm.... esok pagi nak balik kg.. adik perempuan nana cakap nak ikut tapi ikut mood. tried calling her byk kali but to no avail. susah nak cakap.. mak dah tanye.

Actually nana pon dalam mood yang kurang baik. sekarang ni asyik jadik pelakon air mata aje.. air mata ni cam paip air plak dah.. asyik nak mengalir aje. hati senang sangat tersentuh. pantang salah sket.. mula la rase cam sedih, tak senang hati.. sometimes marah yang sampai tahap nak buang and baling barang. hmmm...

Rase cam tak nak cakap byk... cuma harap diri nana akan lebih tenang dan bersemangat menghadapi segala dugaan dari Maha Pencipta... Lets do some prayer...

*Ya Allah..
Selamatkan dan tenangkan lah hati hamba Mu yang lemah ini.
Moga dicucuri rahmat dan bahagia Mu kepada diri hambaMu yang kerdil ini.
Ya Allah, Engkau lah Maha Pemurah, Maha Penyayang dan Maha Mengasihani.
Amin....*

Hutang....

Hi all....

Kontroversi kn bunyinye.... Hutang... tak kire la ape jenis pon.. ade setengah tu panggil loan.. ade setengah tu panggil debt.. ade gak org nak bagi sedap bunyi.. dia panggil installment atau term payment. Huhuh... ape2 pon bunyinye.. still it is one kind of hutangkn?

Kenape tiba2 cite pasal hutang ni? Hmm... insiden nye camni, tadi.. this early afternoon, ade la minah dari bank ni call nana, this is regarding of my auto loan la... my dearest kelisa.. called my cell once but that time nana ade call coming in, i was engaged on the other line with customer, so i didnt pick up. After i put down the phone, another call coming in and it comes to my surprise that she called me from my general office line. MasyaAllah, bukan la nak kate ape.. but to dig my personal info sampai camtuh skali.. rasenye kalau buat loan dgn bank skrg, i feel like i am a naked person. They easilly have access to my information from head to toe.

I had realised about all of these things quite sometimes. Tu pon mase bile nana menghadapi masalah untuk membayar hutang2 ni. Bukannye nana taknak bayar mase tuh.. i dah keluarkan most of my savings to pay as much as i could and still not enough to cover all. Dah la dgn takde keje nye mase tu. Thanks to "u know who u are" for making things worst. Tapi i have learnt the lesson very very well.

So, since end of last year, when i already have a good pay job, i made up my mind to pay the debt as much as i could. Alhamdulillah, lagi 3 bulan, 2 of my contract term payments will be finished. Tahun depan lepas abis tu, maybe nak approach the debt collection officer untuk teruskan another 1 more contract term payment yang agak sakit jugak untuk membayarnye bulan2. Banyak tuh.. Huhuu... sakit mmg sakit.. tapi difikirkan selesa dan leganye lepas abis bayar.. tuhan saja yang tahu.

Jadi... azam baru tahun depan ialah me'release'kn diri sendiri daripada belenggu blacklisted bank. Huhu... InsyaAllah, kalau takde aral melintang, awal tahun 2011, all those unhealthy debt will be finished. Huhuuuuhuhu.... azam ni kene tulis besar2 kat dalam bilik supaya tak lupa.. and tak membazir duit dgn bende2 tak berpekdah.. huhuh...

Okla.. rase cam lega sket lepas meluahkan perasaan yang terbuku dihati. Semoga Allah sentiasa merahmati rezeki kepada diri ku dan menjauhi diriku dari mala petaka.. Amin..

Inginku katakan....

Hi All,

Lama gile tak update blog....

I have to say this loud and clear....

I want to resign a.s.a.p.

I cannot stand anymore...

It has nothing to do with work...

I just really dont have the heart anymore...

Tak boleh tahan dah...

I need a break... and I need it a.s.a.p


p/s: how to write a resign letter?? huhu.. need to consult mother again.. huhuh...


xOxO
Nana

Oh No..... It is November already....?!?!?!?!?

Tup.. Tap.. Ping.. Pong.. Ting.. Tang.. pejam mata.. celik2 dah nak masuk November.. huhu.. dah nak masuk bulan ke-11 dalam tahun 2009. Hmm... ape la cepat sangat ni???

Tapi.. alhamdulillah jugak.. menghampiri tahun 2010 ni.. nana dah berjaya menghampiri azam bagi tahun 2009. Kalau takde aral melintang, Insya Allah, semua yang dirancang, ape yang di'aim' akan menjadik la paling latest by early next year. At least there is some achievement for myself.. huhu.. such a relief...kn?

Now need to figure out ape plak azam bagi tahun depan.. nak cari keje baru? ade utang lain nak kene settle ke? ade barang2 baru nak kene beli? thinking of how to make my money grow, lagi besar lagi bagus.. tapi camne ek.. online business? unit trust? saving and insurance scheme? meniaga pasar malam? hehehe... susah tuh.. nak kene mula pk dari sekarang.. so that it wont be too late to start early next year.

Owh.. talking about online business.. kene start promoting.. sebab cuti sekolah dh nak mula.. so, need to find customers.. now is the time to make more money for my pocket.. sbb bulan 12 my mother nak gi jalan2.. huhu.. duit keluar lagi..

okla.. donno wat to talk summore... huhu... bubbye...

I'm Sorry dear....

Dear...

I am really sorry for what I've said last night...
That is what I always feel.. and I don't want to cheat my very own feeling and also yours...
I'm not good in saying that I'm sorry... as I am never good in playing with words too..
But I regret saying those to you.. even though all of them were very true...

Please forgive me dear...
I never mean to hurt you, not even a bit... not even a glance..
Hope that everything will come in place again...
Same as before and forever will be..

~XoXo~
Nana

Balik Kg... Syawal Eve...

Selamat Hari Raya to all.... Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Cam biase la, like years before... nana balik kg Perak umah opah di Tapah. Kami sekeluarga balik hari jumaat malam after berbuka.. actually not really after breakfasting. heheh.. lengah2 Nana gi shopping dulu before went back kampung.

Kami balik 2 kereta. Angah drive kete kesayangan dia, dia bawa mak, Ateh and Adik. Acik and nana satu kereta sbb seat belakang dah ade satu passenger lain. Heheh.. Kami bawa balik tv sebijik.. sbb masa bulan pose tuh kami balik kg, tv kat rumah opah dah rosak. Huhuh.. sbb byk sgt tv games adik, we decided to bawak balik kg satu tv game adik. Tapi bile sampai umah opah, dia dah beli tv baru made from China. Harga tv tuh tak sampai rm 300. Damn cheap seh.. huhu.. The sound and image pon ok.. not that bad la. Just hope that it will last long la.. so.. the tv yang kami bawak tuh, kami letak kat ruang atas rumah opah. Nak kene beli antenna plak.. tak dapat channel yang clear except tv2 and tv3.

On the way back, sebelum masuk hiway utara-selatan tuh.. everything was just so damn promising.. cam takde jem je.. but i think, mase tu, i spoke too soon about it.. masuk2 aje hiway kat sg. buloh.. terus heavy traffic. Byk gile kete.. sampai tak bergerak. It was 15 mins after 12 midnite.. huhu.. kenape la byk sangat kete.. bukan ade accident pon. I was one of the road user yang using emergency lane sesuka hati. Huhuh.. I tak tau camne my brother ble gigih sgt ikut lane kanan yang tak bergerak langsung tuh. Nana berenti rehat kat kawasan rehat ladang bikam for a while, sempat la nak cuci muka, cari some food to munch.. sementara waiting for Angah to reach there. Both of us dah mengantuk, tapi acik manage to curi2 tido for a while when I was driving. Then, from ladang bikam to rumah Opah, I forced her to drive. Hehehe... I dah mengantuk sgt.. tapi still kene berjaga sbb my sister never drive by her own balik rumah opah. Huhuh...

Acik drive cam siput, seriously very slow. Angah sampai hilang sabar mengikut acik dari belakang. So.. he over-took our car and headed straight to simpang Banir. He waited us there.. hehehe.. but acik mmg bawak kete pelahan gile, kalah siput babi kat pokok pandan malam tu. ahahah... Sampai je kat umah opah at nearly 5am, nana angkat sume luggage dalam kete and straight headed into the house. Masuk je umah, salam2 sume org dalam umah then terus baring kat sofa. New sofa... opah baru beli 1 bulan. Huhuh.. so soft and big, i terus fall asleep. I cant remember bile i tido betul2 atas tilam yang my sister sediakan. Only the next morning my sister cerite camne i bergolek2 dari sofa to tilam. Huhuh.. really embarassing man... nasib baik takde org lain yang tgk.. kalau tak buat malu company aje..

The next day, ramai la adik2 mak balik kg. My mother woke me up at 9 am, sbb mak nak keluar gi kedai elektrik beli dapur masak utk opah and some other furniture kat furniture shop nearby. So, i bangun mandi and siap2. Acik time tu sibuk nak ikut jugak. *I tak bangun pon sahur.. nasib baik i dah makan macam2 dalam kereta smlm. Huhuh.. but i was not fasting pon that day. Dah raya awal.. teropong anak bulan sendiri.. ahahah...* Nampak gak Pak Lang tgh sibuk bersihkan ayam yang opah pesan beli kat pasar.. cam byk je.. selalu opah beli daging.. tapi tahun ni opah wat rendang ayam. Hmm...

Dalam kol 10 am. we headed to kedai Lee at jalan besar, Air Kuning. My opah is this shop regular customer. Opah tak datang pon, cuma mak, nana and acik aje yang gi kedai tu. Towkey Lee tu mmg kenal sgt dgn Opah and arwah Atuk. So, senang sket la nak soh anta barang2 kat umah.. tak payah la nak explain byk2. Mak beli freestanding cooker utk opah, main reason sbb kalau beli table top cooker, kene beli cabinet baru and tak tau nak letak kat mane. So, beli freestanding cooker, boleh buang terus table top cooker yang ada and letak new cabinet and freestanding cooker sebelah2. Cabinet lama tetap kene buang sbb dah kene makan anai2.

Towkey Lee kate dia akan anta the items to rumah opah at 2 pm. So, kami balik umah terus. Mak cakap nak tlg opah masak2 kat umah. Tapi bile sampai, nana sambung tido. Haha.. mase tu, Adik dah bangun, dia tolong Wani and Farah*our dearly cousin, anak Mak Yang* anyam ketupat. Terasa malu plak sbb nana yang perempuan ni pon fail anyam ketupat. Tak ingat dah.. lama rasenye tak anyam ketupat.. teori hebat la lagi.. but nak anyam.. mesti amik masa lama.. huhu..

Kol 4 ptg.. acik kejut ajak gi Tesco kat Kampar. Dia nak beli kasut raya.. kecian kat minah tu.. sbb dia kene operate appendix awal bulan pose arituh.. so, dia tak sempat sgt nak beli persiapan raya. Beli baju kurung pon last minit.. tapi baju dia cantik seh.. huhu.. jeles akak. Kasut yang dia beli kat Fiona tuh pon cantik.. warna putih.. mmg trend muda mudi la.. tapi nana cam elergik sket warna2 putih ni.. cepat kotor.. cemerkap org panggil..

hmmm... dah panjang sgt ni.. nanti nana cite plak kes2 di hari raya and lepas raya... Off then.:P

Salam Aidilfitri 1430H

Selamat Hari Raya.... Maaf Zahir Batin to all my immediate family members, extended family members, close friends and not-so-close friends and also to all the muslim all over the world.
Hope all of us will have a great and wonderful sharing festive moments.

Take care and drive carefully when balik kampung... make sure cars are in good conditions before starting the journey. Jangan makan berlebihan.. nanti sakit perut pulak... :P

Lastly.... enjoy your holidays....